I started studying Interior Design in 2011. Although, I had started to think about studying this subject a good 6 years before that. But certain commitments and conflicting priorities at that time prevented me from doing so.
All those years ago I remember browsing through countless websites and college prospectus’ on a regular basis. I desperately wanted to study design and I couldn’t resist the temptation of leafing through the colourful, glossy pages of a world that seemed so far out of my reach. Even though I had achieved moderate success, I was growing increasingly frustrated and dissatisfied with my career of choice (office based) and felt that as a ‘creative’ my true calling lay in Interior Design.
My home became symbolic of my growing interest in this field. It felt completely natural for me to approach home improvements with a meticulous, design focused eye. I researched, pondered and thoroughly investigated each renovation project and loved every minute of it. Perhaps it was a convenient escape from the realities and challenges of life at that time but either way I fully embraced this creative outlet and it in turn, provided me with a great sense of accomplishment and fulfilment.
I even realised a personal goal of having my home featured in a Design magazine. Before I knew it, a journalist and a photographer were sitting in my living room asking me questions about my personal style, sources of inspiration and useful tips that I could impart to the reader. I stood awkwardly in the background as they unloaded a car with props and set about making my home more ‘reader friendly’; fresh flowers, a cheese board, fine china and countless other accessories were dotted around my kitchen, as I prepared myself for the obligatory ‘reader’s home’ photo.
I felt sheer and utter excitement, satisfaction and perhaps a little smug at having a Design magazine validate my ability where interior design was concerned. At that time in my design endeavours this was a huge milestone, even though in reality, I knew so little about interior design. Yes, looking back, I can definitely see that I knew very little about design! *Cringes*
My life has changed a lot from that article was published (5 years ago), that house and the life I lived at that time is firmly in the past.
But seriously, what a beautiful fireplace.
I’ve also shed quite a few pounds since then. Those hips don’t lie!
I grabbed this new chapter of my life with gusto. I left a life in the country and took up residence in a city centre pad. For the first time in quite a few years I was hopeful and optimistic about the future. In my new found zest for life, I even abseiled down my apartment building (it’s 279 ft in height) and thoroughly enjoyed it. Well, I didn’t enjoy the part where I slammed into the side of the building as I went over the edge but you know, on the whole it was an uplifting experience! Those bruises on my knees took ages to disappear.
For a few added giggles (and for your viewing pleasure), I’ve also included a video that was taken (unbeknown to me) prior to this momentous occasion. The voices belong to my Mum, Dad and Sister. And yes, for some strange reason my Mother mentioned my posterior….still not entirely sure why. Check out that awesome Belfast accent, don’t you just love it (*sarcasm)?!
And then I did it. I enrolled on an Interior Design course. I had a renewed sense of purpose. I was going to finally quench my thirst for more knowledge when it came to applying the principles of interior design.
I was beyond giddy.
I attained my Diploma in 2012 and now I’m studying a Foundation Degree in Interior Design. I’ve demonstrated a range of skill sets that I never knew I had. I’ve taught myself some of the most challenging software applications on the design market today and I’m always being told that I’m ‘inspiring’; that I’m talented and have a great future in design.
So why am I suddenly wavering? At what stage do you lose sight of your original goals and become disillusioned, restless or demotivated? And how do you get yourself back on track? Admittedly, the daily pressures and challenges of life will always have an impact on your ability to remain focused and driven. And that’s where I find myself at the minute. The challenges and pressures are overshadowing my desire to succeed and the only thing that’s keeping me from throwing in the proverbial towel, is the fact that I would be doing myself a terrible disservice by not honouring the natural ability and talent for interior design that I seem to have.
Setting personal goals is easy, demonstrating the commitment and determination to achieve them is the difficult part.